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Sep. 2nd, 2008

So Very Busy

In pink because I'm hopeful that makes my stress and worry lower a bit.  Though to be fair there is a lot of exictment there too.  

  • Saw Kathleen this weekend, for what I thought at the time would be our last face to face for a while.   I'm pretty sure I'm going to see her again for a Dar Williams (here's hoping her new CD with "buzzer" is out) concert though (if you read this before I email yes to you, the answer is yes pending on ticket prices).   Anyhow I'm definately going to miss her, it's a little sad to see our college best friendness be stretched, but I suppose it will be good too.  After all going somewhere new and doing something completely different has to be (hopefully will be) at least as good as it is bad.  Maybe I've totally messed that up though.  Meh.  
  • been helping my brother with all of his many summer reading essays and he's not too bad a writer.  My mom made it sound like he was terrible and, well he isn't.  I guess I should have pulled that from my high marks in English compared to my mother's rather acidic criticque of my own work.  Either way, I'm glad it will be easier on him...even if he does fight me a bit on how much correction is required to make the essay actually meet the ruberic AND fit into your basic thesis formed paper.  It's not entirely his fault they wanted him to cram so much info in one essay, personally I think really there should be a summary paper and a reaction paper as opposed to forcing the two together, but that's just how I do things I guess. 
  • I've noticed how some habits you think are dead really aren't.  A few weeks ago my bf was talking to me about how he'd downloaded all of The Killers because they reminded him of me.  Now I like The Killers, but I couldn't for the life of me figure out why they would remind him of me.  I mean if I were to pick an artist, it would be something less mainstream, like Frou Frou, Loreena Mckinett, Tori Amos, and what have you.  What I hadn't figured in to this equation is that I sing and hum a lot, most often if there is a song to go with like the Killers (which I would be more likily to hear because it is both on my playlist and on the radio as well as on many other's playlists) but I also sing whatever is stuck in my head when I'm happy or when I need filler or when I want cheering up or just because.  I didn't think about that because I didn't think I did that anymore.  My mother hates humming, singing, and whistling.  She always told me I had a terrible voice when I sang that would drive people away (of course none of my friends think this and I have some pretty honest and musically inclined friends, but to each their own).  I didn't want to hear all that so I stopped singing and phased out humming when at home.  Turns out I still do it as long as I'm not at home.  I noticed that at work, since I'm in an isolated area, I'll often catch myself singing out loud and have to stop.  It's just weird to think something like that, which I thought I grew out of is still very much a core little snippet.  I don't know, I guess it just sort of hit me how much I change/shut down when I'm at home. 
  • I've been having really stressful upsetting dreams but when I wake up, there's just that emotion and little snippets of what was going on.  For example, I know that last night's dream was about packing and moving but it was also about hiding from some dream version of Nazis who pretty much wanted me dead.  I know it's just stress from the waking world but it still is unsettling.  I wish the anxiety would leave me be when I'm sleeping.  
  • I'm making a baby blanket for my bf's sister.  I'm trying to hold reiki energy while making it too, but I'm not sure how well that's going to work out for me.  It's hard to be a clear radio as Mrs V woud call it when one is snarking over snarls, tangles and lost loops.  I'll just have to try harder I guess. 
  • My bf started moving into our apartment today.  I know I'm not there and not going to be there for a bit, but I can't help but feel thrilled. The landlady didn't just clean the carpet, but she just put in a new fridge, stove, and dishwasher.  She hadn't mentioned that when we were looking at it (and by we I mean my bf while he kept me informed of course).  I'm glad we stuck with this appartment pick even if the kitched is insanely small. 
  • While talking to Kathleen it occurred to me that I think I really do want to try my hand at getting some of my work published.  I haven't felt this free in years and it's so odd.  I mean on one hand I can see that my slightly emotionally abusive mother has a pretty strong hold on me still because when I tried to tell my bf that I wanted to work on getting published as part of my career goals in WY I lost all basic control to talk and blurted out "what do you want me to do for work when I get there?"  It's the kind of answer I give my parents when they are working on me.  It isn't the kind of answer I should give my bf.  I should be able to just say what my plan is and he should accept it.  Hell I know he supports me, I know he would want me to explore all opportunities I can perceive to the fullest degree and I still choked up in telling him.  It doesn't matter now, I mean I did end up explaining what I meant along with my freeze.  I'm really exicted about the whole chance.  I'm pretty sure I won't get too far, but at least I'll have tried it and seen if it was for me now. I'm going to be posting more about this job and other work related thoughts though, so I'll leave this for now. 
  • I need to throw up a pagan post at some point in time so know that's reserved too. 
  • MUST CLEAN.  Though I'm beginning to see an end, so that's always happy.  I'm thinking about doing the same thing my sister did in regard to packing my clothes anyhow, which will cut all that down immensely.   Still being finicky with books but Gods know I can get through it. 
  • I am THRILLED to give my two weeks on Fri WORK SUCKS.  
  • Saw Barack's speech on Thurs and I soooooo want to be part of his speech team.  Wonderful writing.  Really moving.  
  • Haha McCain you pick poor vp choices

Sep. 21st, 2007

Makes me sick sometimes

Dark Christian over at lj pointed this one out to me

"Rep. Paul believes, correctly, that the Bible is the infallible, inerrant word of God and thus it is not the role of God-ordained civil government, at any level, to feed, house, clothe or educate anybody."

I mean what? I thought and maybe I'm the one wrong, that charity was implict in the Christian doctrine. You know helping and taking care of the sick, poor, mentally disabled, and needy. I thought that even the dommies were all about doing charity work, sure its only for people who worship God nine ways to Sunday, but still I was fairly certain that missionary work, soup kitchens and the like are MOSTLY Christian run.

I mean I guess that maybe the Gov, according to Christianity isn't in charge of charity, the church is. But since dommies usually see church and state as the same thing or should be the same thing, I figured that there should be lot of charities and programs, they'd include the word of God, but they'd still be there.

"Rep. Paul takes his oath to God as a Congressman seriously and believes, correctly, that the Constitution is the highest man-made law in our land, that it severely restricts what the Federal Government can legally do, and it must be obeyed. This is why, as he states on his campaign web site, he has: never voted to raise taxes; never voted for an unbalanced budget; never voted for a Federal restriction on gun ownership; never voted to raise Congressional pay; never taken a government-paid junket; and has never voted to increase the power of the executive branch."

This one I have conflicted feelings on. I'm all for the Constitution, but I think Paul might be skewing meanings here. I mean I'm all for balancing budgets and I'm glad that that he doesn't want to increase the power of the executive branch, but most of that other stuff kind of needs to be passed. I mean taxes are really important and there should be some gun laws and we should have them on a Federal level. I suppose that Congressional pay shouldn't be raised outrageously, but we need to raise it with the cost of living. I mean we don't want people to not take the job because they can't live off the wages. After all most people qualified to be congressmen have law firms or some other lucrative business. It's enough that they are taking a pay cut most of the time without adding to it.

On that note, I'd say that there are times when the Executive Branch needs more power. Times of war, emergency situations, we need quick and decisive actions. I don't think the time is now and even if it was, I wouldn't trust Bush with that kind of power, but there are definately times when we need one guy calling the shots because we don't have time to argue. No choices made can be worse than the wrong choice.

"Rep. Paul, again correctly, is truly pro-life and believes that there are no circumstances under which it is OK to murder by abortion any innocent unborn babies."

Roar, but then again I think we all know that I'm pro-choice. I mean there is too much in the air. What are the circumstances surrounding the pregnancy. What is the quality of life a mother can provide for herself and her child. When is a person really a person, what do we call living? What if a mother can not afford the medical expense of a severely disabled child? What if the kid is already addicted to a substance? There's way too much that tilts what is right and wrong. There are things worse than death and certain we need to take in quailty of life

I mean the dude is just not cool, he has a whole bunch of what I consider bad policy moves similar to these. Ick. Say no to Rep. Paul

Sep. 17th, 2007

Insteresting Article from DC over at LJ

So I was looking through my feeds and came across this little tid bit: George W. Bush is such a good Christian and so firm in his beliefs and ideals that he doesn't bother going to church.

Now of course he give a lot of reasons for this, reasons that never seemed to stop Bill Clinton. But over all while the article is definitely anti-Bush, I think it brings up some interesting issues and it's worth a read.

Belief net article on Bush not going to church and why that is an important aspect of his politics because he has made being a "Good Christian" such a large part of his campaign and time as president